Last week, I made a change: I turned my bricks+mortar yarn shop into a mobile, traveling yarn road show.
Before I made the decision, it felt huge.
And so important.
Important to me.
Important to my family.
Important to my customers.
I struggled with it, internally, before I could tell anyone else.
It wasn't the decision that was hard to make (that was actually super simple), it was the telling. The making public.
I was, well, afraid of the reaction.
Would they be disappointed? mad? annoyed?
And through all this wondering, I realized:
None of that matters.
While I certainly value my community, their (whoever they are) reaction can't make the decision.
It is my business, my life and my decision.
I can't let other's (percieved) opinions decide.
I have to decide.
I know what is best for my business, for my community, for my personal work of making handmade, eco-friendly yarn, for my life.
But, before I could announce it, I had to get really (really!) clear with the why and the how. I had to know that it was right. I had to be strong in my decision.
Once I got there, it wasn't so hard to announce it.
So I made the announcement.
And I was shocked.
Everyone is happy.
Why the big difference between what I thought the reaction would be and what it actually was?
Because I came to it from a place of certainty and peace, I can pass that along.
The after-school special lesson?
If I choose love.
If I choose honesty.
If I choose openness. With myself. With others.
If I do that, I can share it.
Love, honesty, openness, peace.
Getting tangled in the but what will they think, keeps us all tangled together.
Clarity in my work can bring clarity to my community.